Ok, so now we have to have a subscription to ask for advanced critique? This is just getting ridiculous. i hate having to pay for things. I totally wouldn't mind paying for a subscription except for the fact that my parents don't exactly know about this account and i don't think they'd be all that happy if they figured out. Plus if they knew, they'd have a right to read all my stuff and they'd get kinda mad about some of the content. Not that's it bad, but my rents are kinda a prude and expect me to be a shelter good christian child forever. ANyway, i don't exactly have a credit card of my own so i can't get a subscription without them knowing.

Gah! THis sucks.

Anyway, so if anyone wants to donate a subscription to me *hint, hint*. Jk. I wish i had one and it would be freaking amazing if someone felt like buying me one, but i don't want anyone to feel obligated to get me one. I guess i'll just have to wait three more years until i'm eighteen Oh well.

Anyway, i'm feeling so much better. I haven't been as happy as i've felt lately in a long time. i'm kinda having mood swings but that's kinda part of healing. At least my friends tell me they're surprised to see that i'm still able to truly smile after all the crap that's gone on in my life (it's not just about Nick thank god but a whole heck of a lot of family stuff too). I hate talking about the family crap though. i've realized that it's easier to talk about Nick than the family stuff and that's why i never talk about it and always complain about Nick. I have nothing else to complain about without it hurting too much.

Anyway, i have school off tomorrow! Yay! But then school on tuesday And next week is hell week for the beauty and the beast play i'm kinda in. At least i'm only costume and makeup for this one so i don't have a lot of obligations, but i have to spend a whole heck of a lot of time at rehearsall.

I you guys,

Bella